I survived a social gathering

First one outside of my bio family in like 8 months. I have been desperately avoiding such things. I have terrible social anxiety and tend to mess up from self-fulfilling prophecies.

what I did before hand:

• exercised the day before

• tried to do some physical activities the day of

• blasted myself with cold water in the shower that morning

• tried to derail ruminating thoughts of catastrophic failures

• brought a hobby with me to keep my hands busy

• forced myself to feel my feelings before and during, when I remembered to

and it went well y'all. Not perfect, but for me, probably an A performance.