Crazy or not?

Call me crazy, brainwashed, dumb or whatever you'll call me, but I've always wanted to stretch and train my ass to the point of incontinence and impotence. For those who don't know what that is, it's losing the ability to hold shit and nerfingy dick. Now along the years I've done my research as well, so am not just jumping into this. I know the risks, side effects and how it changes lifestyle significantly.... I still want it.

So far I only know three incontinent creators from extreme stretching, tbh most never show the dark side of it but mention it once in a blue moon. Thankfully some address it.

Also I've worked my ass to a decent 'kinda wrecked' point so I have an idea of my goals, a freakishly huge prolapse, crazy depth, and dual incontinence. See, if I eventually take the biggest of dildos my bladder's gonna het impaled as well but I don't mind it.

I don't have a diaper fetish but I also don't hate them, so am fine with ending up in diapers. All I think I need is probably regular medical checkups and advice as I go on to avoid anything unforseen.

Do I sound crazy? Yes, I do, I might be, in fact I never thought I'd end up here, but here I am. Still am still sane enough; I wanted to fuck a horse and get a colostomy bag for an always clean fuckhole, but decided to cut back on that after a bit of research.

I am a long way from my goals, mostly cause I don't have the right equipment, but I want to achieve them as early and young as possible. So the moment I'm financially steady, will be the last day my ass lips touch💀.