Hello Guys want to improve english speaking (F21)

i am eager to learn english language. please if you know any free resources for learning english just comment on it. sometimes i feel shamed because i can't speak english my friends make fun of me useless and shit i take it as joke but deep down i hurt. i asked for help from them but they said do yourself. so i decide to just learn by myself your help is just change my life. i try my best to write in english.