everyone needs someone

i loved you, i was so used to you being hear, i still reach out while i sleep, like your on the other side of the bed. i hold my pillow and think about you, whispering into your ear. telling you how much i loved you. holding you tight, i know you could hear my heart. beating, my heart only pumped for you.

i dont even know if i miss you anymore. you treated me like shit. going back would just be self harm. but i sometimes just wish i could tell someone i love you. im fighting, every day. but it doesnt feel like theres any meaning anymore. it was all for her, i dont like doing things for myself. i wish i had someone i could devote myself to.

every ounce, every fibre of my mind and body. i want to dedicate it to someone, i cant live for myself. i need to do it for someone else. i need to fight for something.