I lost the love of my life bc I neglected myself

I don’t know how to let it go how to let them go. I understand that my mind shapes my reality so if I believe that I’m gonna love them till I die (even though I believe they were my soulmate. A teacher by calling and profession and then there is no love for me then so it will be but it’s just they were perfect for me and I ruined it and and I don’t know how to digest this

I turned them into my god bc they were the person that ever loved me for who I was and my mind. They were the parents I’ve never had (they were physically there but it was a stressful childhood) and he was a lover but I struggles to match the partner frequency often if I’m honest… that’s why both me and him would sense the heavy anxious energy in the air. The force.

I struggle. And there are so many other difficult things in my life right now that I don’t even have enough mental room to digest this breakup and let it go.

Thank you for listening