Ughh

I got to remind myself everyday that other people are in similar situations and if this isn't you never was. You weren't here and I only read things that I wanted to be you like they were you. I know you're not in love with me I know the other people have king size beds and other people have children and I'm just not special I never was I'm definitely not meeting you reaching out because you had almost a year to do it and you didn't. But I'm in that moment where I think it's you and that this is with some bad dream that I get the lesson out of without the pain, it feels cool man