I hate the situation I'm in

I'm going to leave this here because my birthday is coming up soon.

I quite frankly don't want to have a birthday celebration, because my IRL sibling can't seem to stand to have me in the spotlight for like 1 minute without going haywire.

Basically, I have been examining her behavior and a lot of her behaviors have been correlating with narcissistic abuse patterns. Anytime she gets in trouble for something-- anything-- she somehow deflects the blame on me when I wasn't even involved. When it comes to cleaning our rooms during childhood, it was always her sitting on ass while directing me to do everything for her-- and if I didn't comply? She would go and "Tattle on me."

As a child growing up, she always felt like she had to control me. It felt like anyways. She would constantly go through my iPod, my diaries, anything to somehow poison my family against me.

Now as adults, I know she's looked through my phone at least once while I was pretending to be asleep cuz I didn't want to deal with anymore of her antics. Why I didn't reach out and grab my phone from her hand?-- to this day I still don't understand my own action. I know my thoughts are a little unorganized but given how she has been treating me and honestly to the point where I think honestly if I ever get the chance to move out, I might cut ties with my family because she has poisoned them enough against me. So I'm thinking like if I just quietly leave and just not deal with this family anymore--- maybe in the future if they reach out and they finally apologize instead of just brushing things off and act like time will fix it and they don't have to do a single thing... Idk. All I know is that I'm done.