I'm so scared of everything

My anxiety is irrational, I know that, but it's like I can never relax anymore. I am TERRIFIED of everything.

I don't enjoy eating because I'm convinced I'm going to choke the whole time, so much so that I overthink every slight sensation when swallowing.

When I'm in a car, I'm convinced we're going to crash or someone is going to pull out a gun and shoot me right through my window.

When I'm going to sleep, my brain tells me I'm going to get sleep paralysis, that I'm going to die, or that a sinkhole will open up right beneath my bed.

Can't go on escalators at all, make myself an anxious mess on elevators, and I have trouble even speaking to people out of fear that one wrong word and I'll be in danger.

I have to constantly rewash dishes I already washed over and over again if I make one move that is...bad feeling? I don't know how to describe it. Because I'm convinced something has dirtied it.

This doesn't feel normal.

It's taking over my life.

Genuinely.