I honestly feel like role-playing isn't for me anymore.

Especially on instagram. Literally everytime I join a fandom and try to fit in it never goes well. I never make friends at all despite me reaching out to people. I dont understand to be honest. No one even gives me a chance in writing on instagram. If im not active enough im simply ignored the moment I come back. Everyone seems to have their own groups and friends around me. Why is it so easy for people to make friends in online spaces but for me its harder? I hate it. Its even more disappointing when its a fandom I actually like and characters I adore. Attack on titan for example. I rejoined 5 times and the outcome was always the same even if I saw new people. I just dont understand and dont feel motivated anymore. Either I do make friends then im replaced with another person in a week or days. I don't feel like roleplaying anymore. I have hard times in roleplay spaces.