2 saal year back

Maine apna first year JIMS ipu me start kiya tha ba llb
But my bestfriend committed suicided cause of some college and home pressure
So I had to leave that college

I started my first year again in DME but I got 5 backs in first semester and 4 backs in second semester
I only need 2 and 3 marks in 2 subjects to void the year back I’ve filled the inspection application in the hope of getting those marks

But idk if that’s possible
I’m completely destroyed I can’t waste another year of mine I just sit in the room and keep crying and crying
I’m not able to eat anything or do anything I’m extremely depressed I just wanna go and die for disappointing my parents sm they do everything for me they’re the best any child can ask for I love my father and mother sm maybe they don’t even know I have really supportive friends also
But I just hate myself to the bottom of my heart I just wanna die I can’t do this