I confessed

So I figured my online guy friend liked me back, but I also had that voice in my head that he doesnt. I asked him to call and said I needed to talk about something. Then I blurted out that I liked him and that I know he doesnt like me and I wanna stay his friend even if he doesn't like me but I really love him. I thought he liked me too. But then he said "when we first met i liked you, but I dont know if i still do, im sorry" I was so confused. How do you not know if you still like me? I asked when he stopped liking me and he said he "doesnt know if he ever stopped liking me". I dont know what that means. I told him I needed some space, a few days, and he said "a few days? I'll miss you". Why did he have to say that?? I feel like im crazy to think he liked me back. I mean, he said happy national gf day and when I acted clueless and asked if he had a gf and why he was sending that to me he got defensive and said he doesnt have a gf. He got jealous about every guy I spoke about and even went through my following and then messaged me about one of the guys. He told me I was the only person who didn't annoy him. He called my face pretty and complimented my body. He cared about my mental health and if I was eating. He spoke to me about his issues. He asked to sleep on call. When I told him I loved him on call because he was sad (this was like 5 days ago from when this is posted) he got embarrassed and was stuttering and couldn't reply and had to message me his response. He was sweet to me. Like once i was stressing and he said "its okay im here" and i think ill always cherish that moment. He would ask if i would cuddle him and would tell me he misses me all the time. He still wants to be my friend and he said hes sorry if he led me on. After i told him about my crush on him, maybe an hour later he started talking to me about how cute this guy was and how he was gonna message him (hes bi). I feel like thats in bad taste.. Whenever I would post anything about love or wanting a relationship, he would comment under my post something that clearly indicated he was interested. I didnt want to rush things so i didnt immediately ask him out. I also didnt think i deserved him. Im just so sad. What does "I dont know if I ever stopped liking you" even mean??? I think hes just trying not to hurt my feelings. I'm just so sad. I loved him. I dont fall inlove that easily. I love him so much and I dont know what to do now