CW for psychosis and suicidal intent

First post here - this community seems very kind. I'm Books and I'm going through psychosis. I thought I was out of it but I think my aripiprazole has stopped working. I know I'm in psychosis and my beliefs are fake in my head but in my heart I feel myself to be a demon possessing this body.

I'm gaining weight because the voices can control me and make me eat marmalade toast against my will and I do not like it it is very scary I just watch as my body moves.

most of my voices are very kind and might be real people I'm not sure but there is one voice that is very cruel and I am prepared/tempted to drown myself to stop it from taking over me.

I am having many symptoms and am too tired to play games or watch videos all I do is sleep and lay down I want to do something I want to be of service so badly I don't want to be a burden.

I'm very scared all the time. I am very glad I can write and reach out to people I think I would be dead if strangers hadn't been kind to me

I wish I could write more but i am very tired and forget almost everything I don't remember what I did today

Thank you for reading you are much appreciated 💙

Antispychotics stopped working for me