What can I do

My confidence has been dropping day by day, and I don't know why. A long time ago, I left my job due to some personal reasons. After that, I couldn't find a good job, and now I do have a few interview opportunities, but I'm not even going for them.

Deep down, I don't have the confidence to face an interview. I keep thinking, "What if I get selected? I'll have to work with so many people," and that's something I don't want. I prefer being alone and enjoy my own company.

I become extremely nervous from the inside. I haven't been able to find a remote job yet, which makes things even harder.

Just yesterday, I had a telephonic interview. I knew the answers to all the questions, but I don't know what happened. The moment I started speaking, my mind went completely blank. I couldn't find the right words, and it felt like my brain was completely empty, as if I had forgotten everything I knew.

I have ADHD as well, so it makes everything even more difficult.

Now I feel guilty and keep wondering how I'll survive like this. I don't understand how my confidence has become so low or why my mind isn't working the way it used to.

I try so hard to attend interviews, but as soon as the interview day arrives, I start panicking. My heart races, I become overwhelmed, and in the end, I cancel the interview.

I really don't know what to do anymore.