What to look for in a sponsor? How have you done the steps with your sponsor?

I have only 10 days clean. Now at the age of 41 I'm a lot more scared and serious about repairing myself. I have stepped into the rooms here and there through the 25+ years of using. Mostly after falling on my ass/ losing jobs/ housing. I always found what I was looking for at the time, a friend or a relationship, any connection which I'm afraid to ask for. I have never done the work in AA other than to relate the best I can.

I have to move back to Michigan from Hawaii in less than a month to deal with the wreckage of my past and my mother who I have been avoiding/emotionally unavailable for too long.

People keep telling me I need to read the big book/do steps NOW!

At 10 days sober going to meetings 1-2x a day to make connections with anyone possible while trying to be transparent. I have been a recluse for too long. Getting in the habit of going to meetings daily, finding connections for this last month seems more important than the steps. Because it's practice in structure/fellowship that I need to succeed in Michigan.

I don't want to rush anymore.

Trying to connect with anyone who will show me love/time/attention when they are available. People are telling me I need to read the big book and do the steps right now. It just feels too rushed. I need someone who is willing to shepherd me. That I believe in. Shouldn't it take time to find a good sponsor?

The person who has what I want? Or should I just take whoever is available? And take that as a sign of god? I know I have never been good at taking advice.

I have a temporary sponsor/sober support I'm supposed to call everyday I have missed calling him the 2 days but set an alarm for his schedule today. I like him the best for my situation but I need to make a better effort.

I have someone willing to start read the big book with me tomorrow so I have taken up the opportunity. It seems like good practice even if it falls short. I don't trust his advice as much as others. Is it just faith in others and what I can learn from anyone?

What to look for in a sponsor?

Or anyone can work as long as I bridge the gap? I need someone who I have faith in to take me through the process. I need more time to get acquainted in the rooms.

Trust the process and just keep trying?