My mum takes major decisions of my life and I cant cope from the pain that her decisions have caused

My mum takes major decisions of my life and I cant cope from the pain that her decisions have caused

As a daughter I was inseparable from my mom as a child . My relationship with her was really good even though there were some difficulties. But after going out of the country to study ( which is the only thing I did ) I have started to realise that staying away from family especially my mom is the best for our mental health cause we have started to want different things from my life. The issue is i had to come back home after graduation and 70%of the reason is because my mom wanted to get me married. Which she has become successful in

I am getting married in Jan to someone who i am not fully sure about ( he is an ok guy) . But this has put a lot of strain in my relationship with my mom and is also affecting my relationship with my dad . If my mom had listened to me then I could have stayed back in the uk and also could have said no to the guy I am getting married to. The thing is the way I grew up i was so emotionally tied down that I never had the chance to make my own choices and be independent in every way of life. Now I am struggling so much. FYI... my mom does not listen to me . We don't scream or fight but she end up crying and starts playing victim...

I feel so down that I am not able to live my day to day life because my brain is in pain and its draining me. Please help and give me some advice