Should I quit NEET ?

Hey there! I'm 21F, general category from Uttar Pradesh.

I didn't take any coaching for NEET during my 11th and 12th due to which I eventually had to take a drop. My 12th CBSE PCB score was 91.6%

I took my 1st drop and gave my first attempt when I was 19 in 2024, my score was 570 with an AIR 118k, 94.9 percentile

My parents thought I can do much better in my second drop cause I actually did everything from zero during my first drop and wasn't that well prepared. So I took another drop...

My 2nd drop and 2nd attempt was when I was 20 in 2025, my score was 389 with an AIR 220k, 88 percentile.

I was in the SRG batch of Allen during my 2nd drop due to which I was overconfident, didn't practice enough and kept taking things lightly. Also, paper was kinda tough in 2025 so I was already pressurized and panicked.

My parents were disappointed so was I with myself, I thought let me take another drop and give it all. So I did, I took 3rd drop, did every class and tests, solved modules and PYQs, but during this drop I was really stressed..was in depression and even wanted to suicide. I even wrote a suicide letter, cried for 2 hours straight, had a panic attack and then slept. Ngl I was kinda afraid from NEET. My confidence was at lowest (still is) and I felt like a loser. Everything just felt so distant and I felt worthless. I saw my friends scoring good while I was struggling in tests to reduce negatives.

3rd attempt when I was 21 in 2026, 3rd may, I was scoring 546 something.

ReNEET was announced and I thought I've a chance to improve, I worked hard for a month. Solved pyq, read ncert, did questions, gave all tests, analyzed all tests, revised bio, made sticky notes, used my short notes etc etc.

ReNEET score - 478, AIR 121478, 93.9 percentile.

Man I'm tired...idk if mbbs is worth 4 drops. I was really into mbbs till my 2nd drop but now I just get irritated even at the name of MBBS and NEET.

I want to prove everyone that I'm not dumb..I mean dude its not easy to score 478 too, I did study as well.

One of my friend got 4k rank, another got 14k and other one got 10k something.

I'm the only one left...

Idk if I should quit NEET.

I actually am thinking of joining BAMS now. Did my research and I felt BAMS isn't bad too, it's kinda fascinating. My dad supports me with every decision tho my mom keeps talking about mbbs, she respects BAMS doctors too but at the same time she keeps saying ayurvedic doctors don't get enough.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO MAN!! Wtf should I do? Take a drop? Get BAMS ?

I can't afford pvt mbbs, neither can I take loan. I don't wanna go into nursing or bds. Also, I don't want to change my field, I'm interested in medical only.

My heart says to join BAMS college and move ahead in life. While my brain says...

Bro shouldn't you prove everyone that you can do it too ?