Not sure what I want ?

I’m not even sure how to explain this, but I feel like I’ve been living in a way that doesn’t really reflect what I want anymore.
Over the past few years, I’ve become much more involved in hookup culture than I ever expected. I’m not really ashamed of it, and I’m not judging anyone who enjoys it. Some of those experiences have been fun, and I don’t regret all of them. But recently I’ve realized that what I actually want is very different. I definitely want intimacy, someone to build something with. Yet I keep putting myself in situations that almost never lead to that. It’s strange because my actions say one thing, but my heart seems to want something else.
Sometimes I wonder if I’m hoping that sex will eventually turn into a connection. Other times I think maybe hookups have just become a habit because they’re accessible, even though they leave me feeling further away from the kind of life I actually want.

Has anyone else gone through this? How did you know it was time to change? And more importantly, how did you actually do it?