Was it my fault and what should I do? (I was SA’d)

I think I was raped the other night. I’ve been talking to this guy for maybe a little around two weeks, we hooked up the first time we saw each other which isn’t something I normally do, so I was already out of my comfort zone but I tried it anyways. It went fine so I didn’t think anything of it. About a week and a half goes by and we plan to meet up again to genuinely get to know each other and go slow, because I had told him that a fwb situation just wasn’t for me and I wanted to keep that clear. He agreed and made it seem like he wanted the same thing, said he really liked my personality and wanted to get to know me “inside and out.”

Now fast forward and we’re making a plan to meet up after I get off work (I work pretty late but that’s the only time I really can hang out with anyone) and he asked if we could hang at his or my place and watch anime, and he specifically states, as friends. I agree because I think what’s the harm in that right? For context he’s been drinking a bit since 5 pm and it’s now 11pm, idk how much he’s had but I’m giving him the benefit of the doubt he’ll be respectful and we will genuinely just chill and watch anime. Thats not how the night went at all.

It started off wholesome, we were outside at his place watching the stars and talking about astrology, and I don’t mind being a little romantic even if it was supposed to be a friends only thing because our original plot was to get to know each other in that way, but the boundaries I had established multiple times were crossed way more times than I could count. I can’t say how many times I told him I didn’t want to go any further than kissing if things led to it, I was ok with just that and only that. Nothing more. He couldn’t keep his hands to myself. I feel like I let him do it. Mainly because I was scared and because I fear intoxicated men when they get that way. I feel stupid for thinking it would have turned out more wholesome like I had wanted it too, but instead I had to try and convince him to get off of me multiple times.

Now I’ve been feeling sick, bleeding like I’m starting a period (when I just finished mine a week ago), and in so much pain and bruised because he just wouldn’t stop. And he acts like everything is normal now but my body is just in complete shut-down mode. And I just felt so helpless in more ways than one, with his entire body over mine I felt like I couldn’t do anything and just froze, especially since this isn’t the first time I’ve been taken advantage of.

Was it stupid for me to think we could’ve actually watched anime and chilled like we planned?