Barbie Butt

Hiii, you beautiful people. I am one week post-op from my barbie butt surgery. I already had my ileostomy so this was about taking what was left of the rectal stump and anal canal out and closing it up. I need to know what made your recovery better? When did things start getting better? I have been STRUGGLING. Not just physically but that emotional and mental grief of knowing that the bag is a 100% permanent. It was needed, I know that. And I’ve had my bag for two years but I have such a strong hate/love relationship with it.

Also this might be TMI, but I had my husband take a picture for me to see and why does it kind of look like hemorrhoids? 😭 is it just swollen tissue? Will it go down? I have my follow up in a week and a half but my surgeon is out of town at the moment. The surgical team that saw me before discharge told me it looked good and maybe it’s just me that didn’t expect it to look that way. I just… it’s been hard.

Sorry for all the rambling!! The pain has just been humbling. Going from working and being on the go to just stopping has been hard also.

But please any advice, when did you see improvement, or just anything, send it my way!