Need advice getting off this crap (again)

Ive cold turkey’d this crap several times. For me it’s the “hy-roxi-MITa tabz. Similar to 7 staxx I think? The last detox I worked (blue collar) everyday thru the withdrawals somehow without telling anyone except for my best friend who supported me and spent time w me during the worst of it. I’m not gonna sugarcoat it, I was taking a lot and I contemplated un-aliving myself due to the intense depression and lack of sleep and other symptoms that persisted for days to weeks. I did get thru it and felt normal again and had that zest for life again and felt real joy, emotion, contentment, love, and cravings dwindled. But alas, I’m an addict and after 105 amazing days clean, I relapsed /: and now I’m back to square one taking a lot of these tablets per day and very scared of what’s to come. I keep putting it off as well but my wallets taking a beating and people are starting to notice something’s off with me no matter how hard I try to hide it from everyone. My eyes have dark circles under them no matter how much I sleep, I’m nodding off at work, while driving, AT THE GYM, with friends, etc and it’s embarrassing. I got off H 7 years ago and put this behind me but now I’m struggling again to stay clean. I want to avoid rehab but it’s not looking good for me this time around. I can’t put myself thru a cold turkey detox again it was way way way too bad the last 2-3 times I did it. I don’t have the strength to out myself thru it again, and regular plain leaf kratom barely touches the withdrawals. No seriously it takes the withdrawal from a solid 9/10 down to like a 8/10. These Hy-roxi-MITa tablets are soemtbjng from the devil, very strong. Should I try and use MIT or extract shots? Those are expensive. Any advice for me? I’ve been thru this so many times but can’t stay clean and now I’m struggling to even detox because work is so busy and I have a girlfriend.