how can i get a sign from the universe despite the situation i am in

ive been in a painful situation recently, for about a month and i suspect i might have bpd or adhd or both, and anxiety. i’ve lost almost every single friend i’ve ever considered close because of how ive been treating them, whether or not it was consciously or unconsciously. ive been struggling with my emotions a lot and my identity. the only true step forward that ive taken was going for a triage session to get an appointment with a real therapist, and im about to book a GP appointment to get a referral to see a psychiatrist. those are my only concrete practical steps.

i’d still like to call myself spiritual in a way… i dont know… but lately ive been losing faith in myself and i think what im really desperate for is some sort of message from the universe, i want to know if im on the right path… i think in desperate for some sort of answer or just something… to know that im not alone in this… that im still cared for by the universe and im not abandoned. Lol. i dont know. this is just a rant, sorry everyone😭

do i ask a question out loud?