Is this even sleep paralysis?

This has happened to me multiple times for YEARS, but I find it hard to determine if it’s sleep paralysis or not. Basically:

I fall asleep and “dream” (???) that I’m awake. In my “dream” I can sort of see, but not really. It’s like my eyes are glued shut but I’m literally peeling them apart to see, so I can only “see” my environment through the slits in my eyes. My environment is always where I ACTUALLY am (so my bedroom, or the couch on the living room). I’m always in a panic because I know something isn’t right. For example, this morning, I was “dreaming” that I woke up but couldn’t move from my bed and couldn’t “peel open” my eyes. It’s so real that I can feel the textures of my bedroom (ex: I “dreamt” that I rolled myself from the bed and in an attempt to “wake myself up” I was feeling the rug beside my bed, jumping up and down, trying to open my curtains/blinds, “peeling” my eyes open). Eventually I start screaming always in these dreams for help. Usually to my partner, but this morning it was for my mom. Eventually something clicks where I gain actual control and I’m able to fully wake up. When I wake up my eyes actually hurt, and my throat hurt this morning like I was screaming. Is this sleep paralysis? What is this? It doesn’t feel like “just dreaming” or “a nightmare”. It feels like I’m fully completely awake but stuck in my own body.