im 13 and i feel horrible idk

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im 13 and honestly ive been feeling the worst these past years

i only walk for like an hour a day and i dont really have the energy to do lifting or anything. then i see teenagers on social media who look really lean and it makes me feel even worse about myself

i have a bunch of acne, a lazy eye, my cheeks look like theyre sagging down, i have smile lines, and i went from 81kg to 67kg (im 5'5). i have facial hair shadow, my nose is rlly big, and overall i just feel like i look horrible. i feel like i look way older than my age too. people my age look so young and i feel like i look old compared to them

im also so awkward. like my face just looks awkward to me, everything i do somehow looks funny or weird, even when im literally doing nothing. i hate the way i look when i talk or make expressions. my voice also annoys me and i feel like it sounds weird/annoying compared to everyone else's

one thing im especially annoyed about is that when i see myself in the mirror, i dont look that horrible. but thats partly bc i dont wear my glasses when i look in the mirror, so i feel like i dont really see the "real" me. then i see photos/videos of myself and i just look completely different. and i swear i look different in every photo/video i see. sometimes i look fine, sometimes i look horrible. idk if im just overthinking it or what.

my sleep is also completely messed up. i sleep at like 5-7am every day. i dont really have hobbies anymore and i dont enjoy stuff like i used to. i have basically no motivation, no passion, no goals, my brain feels genuinely foggy, i cant remember things properly and a lot of info just doesnt stay in my head anymore. i also get rlly dizzy when i stand up and stuff.

and im already stressing about college. the 3 family members im closest to are all going to the same country for college, and if i cant figure out how to pay for my own college, im scared ill be stuck here basically alone. i dont have motivation to do things, i dont have passion, i dont have goals, and i just feel kinda lost.

especially looking for advice about the appearance stuff,