i need advice pls

i have so many concerns with how i learn and study. i feel like I can't see the bigger picture all the time.

1. my brain always assumes that i already know an information, so i should just skim over the information and forget about it in the future

2. i can't seem to fully analyze texts without the help of secondary sources telling me how i should analyze it. it makes me feel like a parrot that only echoes the thoughts of others, especially that of AI. now that i think about it, have i ever had an original thought in my life?

3. i can't seem to to think / come up with an idea on the spot. during classes, we are required to make inferences, analyze texts, brainstorm ideas— but i can't do all these on my own when prompted. i always need AI to do it for me.

it makes me so miserable because i genuinely want to learn and think for myself, but most times i’m held back by how much i don't know, i don't know where to start, and it's weighing me down. how do i change this? how do i cleanse myself?