I feel intense dread and loneliness after hanging out with friends

It feels like my life is really purposeless sometimes. My friends have other friends, family, or boyfriends to talk to and hangout with after spending the day with me, and for me it sometimes just feels like I am just waiting for someone to reach out to me. I wish I also had someone to come home to even if it was just a roommate where we could talk about our day. There is so much silence and solitude in my life.

I appreciate the moments I have with them but I just wish I could mean more to them and be a closer friend like how I see them, cause for me, they are my world.