Putting off writing the NCLEX

Hi, I’m a new grad and I’ve been procrastinating writing the NCLEX and getting a job for months now. I did really well in school and never failed anything, but I just feel so unprepared still. I’m genuinely scared to have patients lives in my hands. I did my final practicum in a public health setting which was very low stress, but I don’t feel like I learned enough about acute care management. Everyone in my family, my partner, my friends keep asking me about when I’ll write and get a job and I just keep brushing it off. I really need to start making money and part of me is considering just bartending again but I think I would disappoint everyone. I really want to be a nurse, I’m just scared to start. I feel like I had my hands held all the way through nursing school and now I’m unprepared for the ‘real world’. Did anyone feel this way, or have any advice?