hi im just intended to commit suicide

Throughout those about 10 minutes, my head continuously tried to replay dark or happy memories, but it was truly very empty. I was in a lot of pain when the rope tightened around my neck. I intended to reach my hand out to untie it but failed. I thought my life was just like that, but in my head at that time echoed "don't do that V"... so I tried to take it off and pulled the rope off my neck,.. I was really very scared and in pain. I hope whoever reads these lines please think again because there is still me, I will share and confide with you even if you are feeling lonely and hurt when no one is by your side, please find me instead.
I did not take photos to show you guys, but that mark is very red and burning, the tiny spots on my neck are currently showing very clearly and red, they are tiny near under my chin and my head hurts very much.