its so hard to find the right therapist

like arghhhhhhh i cant anymoreeee first choosing one online its already really hard and then you have to go to an appointment with them and in the end you dont vibe with them and have to start all over again and it all takes so much timeeeee and it costs so much money (my insurance doesnt cover anything) and i've been AGAIN searching for a therapist online for an hour now i cant anymoreeeeeee i just wanna engage into therapy and get into the deep stuff and all i just wanna get better why is it that hardddddd