[UPD] Homesickness and anxieties

Hello po! I am a freshman at upd and i just moved sa dorms. first night, akala ko di ako iiyak. pero hagulgol levels na talaga ngayon. the past few days leading to my move-in, parang nawawala ako sa sarili at laging tulala. sobrang daming worries na bumabagabag sa utak ko, tungkol sa new life ko sa up academically, socially, mentally, lahat na + living independently. ang dami kong iniisip huhu

for context, i didn't come from a perfect family pero sanay kami na kumakain nang sabay sabay, nagkekwentuhan, at nanonood ng movies. i live 2 hours away so i plan to go home every weekend. pero today, and i feel for the following weeks, maiiyak pa rin ako. because i know once i leave for college, home will never be the same again.

sobrang hirap kasi ilang beses ko pinagdasal na makarating ako sa posisyon ko ngayon. this is my dream. pero bakittt ganito yung sakitttt

though im very fortunate na nakakasundo ko roomies ko hehe

ultimately, i miss my family, my friends, everyone back home. masasanay din po ba ako? what should i do to cope and feel less homesick? thank you!