28F - Mom just passed this afternoon

I'm from Indonesia. I don't really know what I'm doing right now, I just feel like I need someone to Call and talk to. Preferably someone older. I speak English, and if you happen to speak

Chinese too, that'd be nice.

I keep thinking about everything I could've done differently. The regrets are hitting me pretty hard right now.

Mom, forgive me. I messed up 😭

I just don't want to be alone with my thoughts tonight.