Do people just freak you out?

I just get so overwhelmed by living. There is a terror I have to deeply compartmentalize. At first I thought I was autistic, then I thought ocd, I know I have bpd, but dpdr seems more accurate. Reality feels like the giant oppressive anvil that’s been dropped on me. What ever allows people to just get on with their day I don’t have that in my brain- just this terror about reality. Something evil in people in myself and underneath the world.