puppy regret

4 days ago i made the decision to get a puppy. i’ve always loved animals, dogs especially. i have 3 kids 10/9/& an almost 2 year old. my oldest 2 have wanted a puppy for a long time now and i figured they’re old enough now. my toddler has been very good with the puppy, very gentle and honestly doesn’t pay him much attention. my partner did not want to get a puppy, he isn’t much of an animal person but i convinced him that it was a good idea. now im regretting this decision so badly and feel so guilty for getting the dog.

the day i got him he seemed very tired/sluggish, i thought maybe he was just nervous. i set up a vet appt for vaccines that same day. we get to the vet and they’re immediately concerned about him, thinking he may have parvo. they start doing all kinds of tests on him and i become extremely stressed out because i want him to be okay but also because i know an ordinary wellness check/vaccines appt just became a lot more expensive. turns out no parvo (thankfully) but he is infested with hookworms & anemic. now he is on 3 different meds 2x a day. vet bill was a lot more than expected which is stressing me out and i also have to bring him back today for a follow up. i did not expect to be spending all of this money so quickly.

also, i take him out very often. he’ll go outside, use the bathroom, sometimes several times. and then almost as soon as i bring him in he pees on the floor. i’m also very scared about the hookworms. this whole situation is giving me severe anxiety and i honestly want to not have the dog anymore but i don’t want to upset my kids. i just don’t know what to do :(