Is "God" actually good?

The reason I became an atheist is because there was NEVER an actual evidence about his existence, and also, wouldnt be weird how a virgin gave birth to an divine being that died, came back 3 days later created everything (because apparently, he lived on nothing back then) made humans out of dirt, is super powerful and all this shit, why would he let us suffer? "He also created free will" you say, but does the children with cancer choose that? or the baby who was born out of a rape and the mom was forced to not abort it had a choice to be born like this? in that family? I prefer to believe he does not exist, because if he does, hes just a sadist disgusting being who created humans just to suffer and praise his selfish being, hoping he'll change something someday.

About "God's Plan", why does he plan that? Did he plan for Nayoung, an eleven year old to get raped until her womb fell out and now she lives traumatized, locked at home?

Or did he plan do Junko Furuta get abused for 44 days after just turning someone down?

Or the poor child who got death sentence without being guilty and died in the electric chair holding a bible? God never saved him. God NEVER saved none of them.

"Oh so you believe a blob of energy cells just blew up and made everything perfect" It's better than believing that theres a big invisible man in the sky that made us out of dirt, if the universe can hold itself, how could It not create itself? And things are not perfect, never been, probaly never will, but things today are like this because of evolution, over 4.6 billion years, plants, animals, cells, bacteries, all came from evolution, we came from evolution, and we are still developing ourselves to more and more of that evolution without even noticing, same to plants and everything else.

There is no God, there is not faith, there is no miracle. There is science and intelligence.

May Richard Dawkins bless yall, atem.