I will never get over the selfishness of those who knew I was grieving.

It's so selfish that I could lose my mom and people's first thought will be "How does this make ME feel?" Then just roll the situation off their shoulders because it makes THEM feel uncomforatable. I am never unblocking a childhood friend who wasn't there for me. It took her 6 months to even apologize to me for not being there enough even though I asked her to check in. I will never get over her selfishness of considering how it makes HER uncomforatable to face it. She apologized for not texting enough or being there enough then changed after making plans once right before just going back to her old ways.

She would send me baby photos of her baby but never checked in once. Her support was sending reels and looking supportive on social media all while blowing off plans knowing what I was going through. I cannot get over how she could update me on her life and her baby but never asked me how I was doing, just made everything about her baby or asked a question about a place SHE wanted to know the name of like that was what mattered. I will never get over the way she knew what she was doing and even acknowledge it in her apology and only changed enough to keep me around. I will never get over how it took 6 months for me to cut her off.

She could be bothered to ask me for the name of a place she forgot but couldnt be bothered to ask me how I was because it made HER uncomforatable to hear about and was oh so inconvenient. She only prioritized her own comfort even after my mom died and the apology just let me know she knew what she was doing too. Yeah she's the real victim needing to be a little bit uncomfy at the fact of MY suffering while she gets to parent her child and be off in her own world caring about if SHE has the energy to show up. I was even going to go to her place if she didn't have the energy to bother but she couldn't do that either. She could have her friend post them hanging out together on IG but when I lose a parent she couldn't even bother to b around. So selfish of her to care more about the fact I'm too negative to be around than the fact I lost a parent.