I really like my friend

We’ve known about each other since we were 11, since we had a lot of mutual friends, but we never really talked until like a year and a half ago. I found out that we majored in the same thing so it was nice having someone I could talk to about college and such. And since then we’ve been talking everyday more or less, it has been basically a single conversation that never really ended. But because of the different time zones, and her sleep schedule was also a little weird, it was quite sporadic throughout the day

Just for some more context, we’re from Asia, but we’re both doing college abroad. She’s in Australia and I’m in Europe. The semester ends in the two places can be a bit mismatched so it wasn’t until a month ago that I got to meet her in person when we both went home for summer break. But just being in the same timezone got us talking a lot more, we essentially talked since we woke up until we go to bed. We met up in person, and man she just gets me. I often go on tangents about a lot of stupid things and she always seemed interested in them.

She flew back to Australia last week and a part of me just feel empty. Which is weird because we still talk, even a little more so than before we went home for the summer. I don’t know if I even like her like that or if I just like her as a friend. And I don’t know how she feels about me. I just wish we could see each other more than a few times a year.

I briefly considered asking her if she wanted to try dating, but then we’d have to do long distance and our life plans just don’t line up, at least for the next 5 years or so. So ig now it’s back to me telling her about the girl on campus I have a crush on and her telling me about the guy on hers. But it’d feel a little weird