is it over for me

so i have been keeping touch with my ex-roommate all summer who i kind of fell for while we were living together and i really thought we had something as cheesy as it sounds but i found out there is a girl that she thinks is cute while we were chatting 😭😭😭. so i guess i have misinterpreted everything or this is my own fault bc i never let her know that i liked her or girls at all because i honestly have not been sure until recently and i was really not trying to lead her on if i was unsure. despite that i thought we had a connection that was more than friends. we talked almost everyday towards the beginning of the summer but it was a bit awkward imo for me because we were used to hanging out it person and now we still talk frequently but it has been taking her longer to text me back. but she always responds to my stories and asks me how i’m doing and IDK MAYBE I WAS SEEING WHAT I WANT TO SEE but it felt like she liked me more than a friend. this is certainly my fault cause i never let my feelings be known, in fact purposely try to hide them because i’m honestly a bit of an avoidant type and have never dated anyone before or liked anyone like this. and i can’t bring myself to flirt over text when i’m not even sure if she likes me back or we’re just close friends now.

so yeah maybe she did like me for a bit but time and distance has made her move on, which makes sense and is honestly my fault. but idk what to do now. i think i still really like her a lot, maybe even more now that we haven’t seen each other in so long. but if the feeling wasn’t mutual and she’s seen me as a friend this whole time, or at least just now, or as much as i do since she’s out here telling people about how cute she finds this girl then idk what to do. try to move on? try to win her over? it hurts because no matter now i feel like my feelings will be one sided or reciprocated equally. and i just feel kinda stupid for liking her so much when i guess i was just making things up in my head.

i was really looking forward to seeing her again when school starts but now i don’t know how to treat her or approach this. i don’t know if i can’t stay friends with someone when i have these unrequited feelings because i will get jealous.