The inability to emotionally connect in a deeper level. inteovertedness. Ask me Anything

Not sure if it's the fear or narcissism or my inteovertedness. I push people away, i isolate myself and then feel bad about isolating myself. This loop has been going on for years. Never stops. I always assumed it was the place the environment - the result is exactly the same. I speak to tons of people many know me i know many - but it's just that- not anything more. Why?