I've been COPYING in my coaching Tests, getting 80-90/300 when my real score would be like 20. Do i have any chance?(Pls no judge)

So I've been cheating in my coaching tests, yes I know. Its bad. I want to stop now. but every single time i study HARD man i STUDY. I attend all classes,solve modules, give mock tests do pyqs but I'm not able to get marks man. The mocks i give(part test ones) I get barey 50-60 when i solve on my own. Its mostly about not knowing how to solve the questions even though ive practiced.

IDK MAN they require a level of conceptual clarity which i js DONT have. I study man atleast 4-5 hours a day on average. On the days close to my coaching tests it goes 7-8 hours. BUT WHERE ARE MY MARKS MAN WHERE ARE THEY GOING. I don't understand. I dont know how to stop coz im so scared of what my parents will say. I have around 3-4 weeks till the next test can someone PLEASE tell me how i can score atleast 50/180( its an adv pattern test) or start scoring atleast 100/300 in mock tests ON MY OWN. PLEASE DONT JUDGE I KNOW I'VE MADE A MISTAKE I KNOW. IM TRYING TO FIX IT. IM SORRY