31m. I can pay something but I simply cannot afford therapy, and I think I desperately need to talk to someone

31 year old male here. I would say that its safe to say im in some pretty heavy isolation. Ive been through some crazy things (thats not what I need to talk about) that have made me a very socially awkward and withdrawn person. Its very hard for me to talk to people in person at all. No friends. No girlfriend. At this point I have accepted that im going to be alone forever, and thats okay. But if im going to stay alone like this, I need to learn who I really am, and start liking that person more. If there is a therapist or someone qualified willing to talk to me, I can pay you something for your time. I just can not afford real therapy with the way things are in the world right now. I can barely afford to survive