My last post, I asked all of you to choose how I whip myself with a cable, how I am to edge and how I am to force myself to ruin. I did mention clamps as well and while the poll went well and one option was chosen clearly, majority of the feedback I got just pushed me towards \*'Well, why not just do everything, darling?'\*

And that is exactly what I did.

First, I got myself hyped up in my pretty polkadot pink little dress, my ass and pussy exposed to the cool night air as I danced and felt myself up in my room, my mirror the only viewer who got to see every swish of the netted translucent dress and my pussy dripping in anticipation of the pain.

I just \*love\* being a masochist. I don't even need to start and actually feel the pain for me to start dripping.

Ahhh I ramble! Sorry, the account of how everything went is as follows. 

Two rounds in front of the mirror with my tits pulled out of their soft cloth cups. 

25 hard and crisp strokes on my left and then another 25 on my right breast. My clit remained painfully and beautifully clamped in a tight black binder clip this whole time. 

If I hesitated, I delayed. If I delayed, the clamp stayed on longer and it hurt more (\*I had a timer on my phone to make sure I don't stay clamped for too long and cause actual damage. Safe play is fun play!)\* 

I must admit, watching myself squirm and whine and sniffle in the mirror was...way too addictive. My breasts were covered in red thin lines and my pussy was making my inner thighs wet.

So 50 strokes done and I took off the binder clip (\*which had me on my knees almost, cupping my pussy and trying to not actually cry btw!\*) Then I laid back on my bed and edged 4 times, almost laughing at how much my clit hurt to touch and edge but I did it. Like a good girl. 😉

Onto the next stage! Ass whipping! Yay ✨️🥰

I put the binder clips on my burning swollen nipples now ( \*yes, of course I let a few whips land on my nipples too 🤭 i wouldn't take it easy on myself hehe\* ) and pulled a chair up to the mirror and put one leg up to see how the cable lands on my ass. 25 on my left ass cheek while my nipples screamed unheard for mercy and then 25 on my right ass cheek. 

Yet again, I was my own tormentor and savior. I delay cause my ass hurts? My nipples hurt more from the clamps. I go faster and harder to save my nipples, my ass gets a ladder of pretty red welts on them.

When I was done, I took off the clamps, biting back cries as I rubbed and massaged the blood back into my poor nipples. Hurt like a mfer. Made me miss my ex dom a bit tbh, I always loved when he said he would love to massage and pinch and roll my clamped nipples because the blood rushing back would hurt even more. Ah well.

Then I sat on my freshly whipped ass, feeling the welts rise slowly and then forced myself to ruin 4 times. One after the other. 

Guess what? The ruins made me cry rather than the clamping and the whipping 😭 the empty clenching, the pathetic dribbling, the aching clit, the frustrating loss of pleasure...ahhhh I love how much I hate ruins!!! 

Then I sat there, my front and back swollen, welted and throbbing. I took one look at myself in the mirror and-

And...I...um...did it all over again.

🙈 I couldn't help myself.

I sadly didn't take any pictures after because after 200 whips and 8 edges and 8 ruins, all I had strength to do was to hydrate, munch on a sweet cookie and cuddle my teddy in bed for a bit before I checked the welts for any tears or something needing medicine. Then i just washed up, applied some ice and relaxed. Aftercare is important!!!

Life was busy for a long while after that but I felt the welts for a few days after, everytime I wore a bra or sat down. I loved rubbing them and wincing. My poor pussy also really loved the edges and the forced ruins, it drove her crazy!

My update is late, I know 😭 sorry about that! Life was crazy. Now I'm already wondering what to do for my next edging session and it's making me clench with anticipation.

So was I a good girl who took all her whipping, her edges and her ruins well? Praise me? Give me ideas? I found a rubberband today...should I use that to snap my clit and tits sore and then edge? 😉 

What do you think?

Love,

Doe 🦌✨️

[27F] [Masochism] [short term denial] Whipped myself 200 times, edged 8 times and forced 8 ruins. A masochist's little account of an evening spent well denied and welted!