Husband turned out to be everything I never wanted in a man.

**keep in mind this is my problem and from my circumstances, please be kind, I am genuinely seeking advice because I can't speak about this out loud with my family and friends, any advice would be appreciated**

I am F(29) and I met my husband while I was working abroad. He kept seeking my hand in marriage for a year but I kept refusing for some reason I never fathomed. Due to friends and family pressure they all told me he looks respectful and I should give him a chance.

I didn't want to date, so I asked my father to travel to the country I was working and studying my masters in, so he could meet him and make a good judgement of him as a man. Fast forward, and I mean this how it happened I felt like they tricked my father into agreeing that nikkah is the best course of action to "get to know eachother in a halal way" since I am living abroad alone and It will give us freedom to meet and talk.

I didn't agree to it, but my father kinda forced it and I felt refusing means I will be committing sin. I agreed.

Sadly, I found myself in a fully married relationship and kind of forced to live together as a married couple, I wanted to just be responsible for my decisions and I commit to this in hopes I will fall in love with him some day.

He's a very decent guy, and treats me kindly, but he is so inexperienced in life, lied about his job achievements and his job, his family turned out to be total nightmare, kicked out of two houses now and I still never had this "bridal era or honeymoon" like how I dreamed of.

Divorce in my culture is like a total sin, he made me stay at home and I haven't been working in 3 years and can't find a job in the country I am in, I feel like a total loser and alone , and on top of that I have no physical attraction towards him.

I feel confused because in terms of attitude he is very good to me, it's just I can't get attracted to him. And in terms of emotions, due to the drama with his work and family, he basically never "dated" me no dates, no trips, barely giving gifts and saying the excuse to everything is lack of money. I am patient and I will stand beside him till he is financially better, but I am withering and I have no kids and no physical love, he keeps gaining weight and thinks everything is fine if you shower but never look nice for your wife.

He also keeps telling me you're just too pretty for me, and I don't get it.

We don't have kids and everyone is saying be patient and he will change, he will become more experienced in how to lead and how to be romantically involved in this relationship. But I don't know I feel miserable and scared if I leave him I will have nowhere to go because I gave him the good years of my life.

What should I do?:')