brutal exp

Just to share about my suicidal ideation experiences

it is during pandemic and my romantic breakup (5yearrelationship). that time (2022 to 2025) I have no emotional tools to cope, and it was brutal. I cant eat, I cant eat, and I cant sleep. its so hard to do ordinary days.

My thinking is that “living is worse than being dead”.

and my mind and is body is blurring. and it feels like my whole body is internally bleeding, and my heart its so exhausted. any second, any minute, feel so eternal. I want to end my life as fast as possible.

I dont know how I overcome that, but yeah- finding someone who is trusted enough to share all of my vilnerabilities- is really the life saver. as if my pain is met with compassion by someone (and I thanks them).

bruh suicide is hell.