Having a crush on a straight girl

Gen js wanted somewhere to put my thoughts.

Tbh it’s my fault since she already mentioned before in the server that she’s straight but my dumb ahh w separation anxiety didn’t wanna distance myself from anyone since I’m clingy to everyone. She’s so flirty and I get jealous A LOT even though I literally have no right to.

I kinda js snapped back to reality when she asked if I was okay w all of this being platonic, ofc I said yeah… I have to admit its so sweet of her to check in w me on that.

I did say before that I’d distance/isolate myself if I caught feelings and I’m alr starting to avoid her. I wish I js had a crush on a guy or a lesbian bro, I js recently moved on from my last crush (bi girl) and latched onto my new crush cause I haven’t found another way of distracting myself from problems :(