Im afraid to go into psychosis.

Hi, im a male diagnosed with: depression, GAD, social anxiety, panic disorder, paranoia, ocd, dpdr, autism, possible stpd, and possible complex trauma. I smoke weed from time to time, but not severely. I've had dpdr even before I ever smoked, but after using for a significant time, my dpdr has skyrocketed. Nothing feels real, not even myself. I can some attach myself to reality, it still feels unreal. Im not sure how related weed is to a lot of these symptoms, but my mental health decreased over that time even without weed. Im having visual distortions, mild/ moderate hallucinations(even sober), delusions while sober, insane thought loops and intrusive panic inducing thoughts. I've developed i huge fear for other people, myself and about all existential/ psychological thoughts. Im spending hours thinking the same crazy delusional thoughts again and again. I've been un able to function socially because of it. I probably even went into a psychosis at one point.

Edit: my ocd is mostly meta - ocd, but then also social, and existential/ psychological.