FUCK SISTERS I HATE MY SISTER SO MUCH

Why the fuck do some older sisters hate their little sisters so much?

Like genuinely, anong problema mo sakin?
I literally did NOTHING to you. Wala akong ginagawa sayo, hindi ako nakikipagsagutan, hindi kita pinoprovoke, hindi kita ginagalaw. I don't even fucking talk back to you. Pero somehow, lagi mo pa rin akong sisigawan, minsan pinipisikal mo pa ako, and you act like my existence is some kind of inconvenience to you.

Minsan ngingitian lang kita and babalikan mo ng taray at masamang tingin. Like??? Anong kasalanan ko? Bawal na ba kitang ngitian ngayon?

And whenever you know na nasa bahay ako, bigla kang magwawala. Kinakalabog mo yung mga gamit, sinasara mo nang malakas yung pinto, nag-iingay ka on purpose. Para saan? Para iparamdam sakin na ayaw mong nandito ako?

Do you even realize how fucking exhausting that is?
I've literally become traumatized by your footsteps. Kapag naririnig kitang papalapit, kinakabahan na ako. I already expect the yelling, the attitude, the fucking aggression. Imagine being scared of your own sister just because you don't know what mood she's going to be in.

And no, I don't hate you for no reason. You gave me every reason to stop respecting you. I used to respect you because you're my older sister. Pero ngayon? Wala na. As in zero. I don't even recognize you as my sister anymore.

And I don't care if people think that's disrespectful. Respect is not something you're entitled to just because you're older than me. Especially when you don't even treat me like a human being, let alone your own sister.

I can't fucking wait to get out of this house.
I can't wait until I don't have to hear your footsteps anymore. I can't wait until I don't have to wonder if you're going to yell at me or start another fucking scene just because I'm home. Once I get out, I'm cutting you off. I don't want a relationship with you anymore. I don't want to pretend we're sisters just because we're related.

You lost me a long time ago.

And the saddest part? I never even did anything to you.

I just existed.