I hate myself for hurting my ex ( she is getting married saw her engagement pictures today )

Pata hai aaj kya hua..It had been a 3-year relationship… and I swear she had the purest heart. I’ve never seen a girl so caring and loving. Her voice, her eyes, her waist-length hair… everything about her was beautiful.

But I’m the one who messed it all up. Around 2 years ago, I don’t know what happened to me. Everything was going well, but I started distancing myself from her. I wouldn’t reply to her texts… I don’t even know why. Maybe someone filled my mind with negativity about her, saying she was pretending. But no… she was always real. She truly loved me.

I think I was just scared of getting hurt.

One day, she got fed up and broke up with me. And honestly, she was right. It was valid. But it’s been 2 years now… I tried a lot to win her back, but she didn’t agree. And even after all this time, I still haven’t moved on. I still love her.

And today, I saw her engagement photos… I cried so much. She’s getting married to an IPS officer (it’s a love marriage). I know him, he’s from our city. And no, she’s not a gold digger… she comes from a well-off family too. Her two brothers are IITians, and one of them is an IAS officer.

I’ve never felt this kind of regret in my life… We had made so many plans together, and I ruined everything. I don’t even know if I’ll ever be able to move on. I know she will never forgive me, because I hurt her a lot. Even while writing this, my hands are shaking.