Can’t Believe

I broke up with my narc for good and I feel sooo much better. Idk why I stayed with him smh. Before I cut off communication with him he was apologizing etc. He also was swearing on his mother that he loves me. His mother passed away in 2009. He also swears on other people who he supposedly loves. Is it possible in his weird world he actually believes that he loves me? I don’t think so. There’s nothing he can say to get me to believe he loves me.