Getting labs done today and I’m in a panic

For context, moderate to heavy drinker for past 20 years (middle-aged M). Getting labs done after seeing PCP yesterday for annual physical. Fessed up to the doc that drinking consequences have gotten worse (lower tolerance, longer hangovers, more anxiety/panic/etc) and efforts to abstain have been inconsistent.

Good news is no clear signs of withdrawal despite drinking for the past six days (with eight and nine day breaks before that…still trying to get over the double digit day hump). Vitals were normal.

But doc wants to get the full blood panel done including liver function today. And that’s what’s got me panicked. Prior to last month I’ve only gotten 6-7 days a month alcohol free and I’m really worried it’s gonna come back catastrophic.

I know it’s the right thing to do and any information is good information, but I’m an anxious wreck right now. Draw time is in a few hours with results coming back after that. I’ve nearly talked myself out of it at least three times this morning, which I guess is why I’m posting here.

Anyway, any support is appreciated (or just tell me to suck it up, quit my BS, and get it done…that’d be fine too).