I(24F) going insane being in a LDR with my bf(24M).Need help?

I met my bf on insta during the end of January and ever since we’ve been talking everyday. He seems like a very sweet and genuine person and cares for me alot. The feelings I have for him is so genuine that I’ve never felt that way for anyone. I wanna spend time w him irl and be able to go on dates. I yearn for him and love him so much that it hurts when he’s taking time to reply to my text messages. I wanna build a future with him and marry him despite us belonging to a complete diff religion and cultural background.

The thing is few months back he told me that he can’t take the distance anymore and was worried if we don’t get a chance to meet which will lead us to get hurt. This thing shattered me and I felt so hopeless. I was willing to do anything to close the distance while he was thinking of giving up on us. I let him go and we stopped being in contact for a week. Later, after a week he drunk called me and told me how much he misses me and wants me back. I happily accepted him and was happy to be back together.

But the problem is I’m in fear of a possibility of him giving up on us again if we don’t meet very soon. I’m feeling like a deadline is being setup on me until which I have the time to sort things out and it’s making me very anxious. At one point, I’m having a thought of ending this connection so I don’t get heartbroken again by him and I’m feeling awful being in this state, it will make me feel free but on the other hand I love him so much that the thought being without him will make me go more insane.

I previously had a ldr too which was 4 years long and we never got the chance to meet so I ended that relationship. I’m in fear that what if the same situation occurs and we ended up never meeting. Seeing my friends having a good time and date with their partners makes me feel so lonely. I wanna experience the physical presence of my partner, being able to hangout and so much more. Our communication seems alright but sometimes he’s so dry and replies me late which makes me overthink that he might be losing interest.

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