I want to be spiritually filled, not emotionally driven.

As a woman in my 20s, I struggle with my emotions a lot. I’m very emotionally driven, and I tend to feel things deeply and act on those feelings. Later, I often regret my actions because I end up hurting other people and, in turn, hurting myself. I know that this does not honor or please the Lord.

Aside from that, I am very hard on myself. I tend to absorb the words of other people and become overwhelmed by them. It feels like I’m constantly trying to be who others expect and want me to be, and then I end up feeling angry and frustrated because of it.

I also tend to lash out when I’m alone in my room and overwhelmed by all these intense emotions. I feel guilty because I know that this does not please the Lord.

I want to change. I want to become spiritually filled rather than emotionally driven, and I want to grow deeper in my faith and relationship with Christ.